The first “product” was out. A small reward was deposited into my account.
It was like a re-entry permit to the “site” of society.
But the relief was short-lived. In my brain’s OS, an old “bad habit” started blaring an alert: “Can’t I earn more?” “I should make up for lost time while I can.” It was the temptation of overloading.
The Temptation of Acceleration and Ground Creaking
The joy of taking a step forward quickly turned into “impatience.”
With AI, I could move more efficiently than my past self. Intoxicated by that sense of omnipotence, I tried to pack my schedule once again.
“I should follow that account, too.”
“I might be able to handle this project, too.”
The moment I slammed on the gas, the ground beneath my feet began to creak with an ominous sound. This was the same omen as when I collapsed before. When signs of recovery appear, the brain forgets its “limit” and tries to rush toward overload again. An OS that broke once cannot yet handle continuous high-load operation.
Letting AI Handle the “Brake”
I realized I couldn’t step on the brake myself. Confirmed in that fact, I gave AI a new role: a Safety Management Officer to monitor the “me who accelerates too much.”
I decided to input my daily working hours, sleep time, and the “color of my mood” into the AI.
“Look at my current data. If I’m trying to overexert myself, issue a strong warning to force a complete stop.”
The AI dispassionately restrained me:
“Takehisa, your current operating rate is $30\%$ over the ground’s strength. The loss from a system crash tomorrow is greater than today’s reward. Close the PC immediately.”
“Earning” vs. “Continuing to Earn”
Desperately trying to earn is a sign that I’m still afraid of “losing.”
But the true terror shouldn’t be running out of money; it should be “not being able to stand up again.”
By entrusting the brake to AI, I was finally released from the fear of acceleration. Now, instead of a full sprint, I maintain a low-speed crawl that won’t stall the engine. That is the most important construction management for maintaining this site (life) until Chapter 100.
The Xer’s Monologue
“Strike while the iron is hot,” they say. But if you do that while your mental state is still reheating after a freeze, you’ll just snap the metal in two.
When you start feeling better, that’s when you’re in the most danger. The voice saying “you can do more” isn’t your ambition; it’s the ghost of your past trying to break you again.
Let the AI hold the brake. Make the machine tell you to rest.
“Instead of earning 100 all at once, continuing to earn 0.1 every day for 1,000 days will result in a much larger building in the end.”
Got it done.
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