I started using AI as “heavy machinery for earning,” but in the process, I gained an unexpected byproduct.
The very act of writing a “prompt”—the command for the AI—had become a powerful form of mental care, a way to organize and stabilize my own heart.
Dredging “Building Materials” from the Muddy Waters of Emotion
Back in the depths of my adjustment disorder, my head was constantly overflowing with the muddy water of anxiety, haste, and self-loathing. Even when I tried to think, the ground was so soft that I couldn’t drive a single foundation pile.
But to entrust work to an AI, the act of verbalization is unavoidable. “What do I truly want right now?” “What kind of output (result) do I need?” To communicate this to the AI, I had to plunge my hands into the mud inside my head and pull out solid “words” (building materials), even if I had to force myself.
Externalization: The “Land Leveling” of the Mind
“I am exhausted today. My self-esteem is at rock bottom. Write a 500-word piece to encourage me in a tone that is strict but warm, like a veteran site manager.”
At first, my prompts were clumsy like that. However, by the time I typed it out, I was already objectively “surveying” my current state: acknowledging that I was tired and my self-esteem was low.
Converting the nameless terror swirling inside me into visible “data” (text) and discharging it to the outside (AI)—this process was the “land leveling” that flattened the raging terrain of my heart.
A Mirror of Logic: The Calculation Sheet
The AI returns words exactly as prompted, without a single error in calculation. Unlike a human, it doesn’t interrupt with emotional arguments like “Don’t say that.” It simply generates text that accurately reflects my state.
Looking at that output, I feel a strange sense of clarity: “Ah, so this is how much I was actually worn down.” A prompt isn’t just a command to a machine. It is a “Structural Strength Calculation Sheet” for measuring the integrity of my soul and determining where reinforcement is needed.
The Xer’s Monologue
When your worries are spinning in your head and you don’t know what to do: just take that mess and throw it into the AI chat box. Try saying, “I don’t want to go to work today. List the reasons in bullet points.” While you think you’re commanding the AI, you’re actually rewriting your own “instruction manual.” The moment you verbalize your emotions and output them to an external screen, that worry is detached from your heart.
“After that, just sip some coffee and watch the AI heavy machinery level that mountain of mud for you. You’ve already done the hardest part.”
Got it done.
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